No work today, as the school I work at on Mondays is having an In-service for teachers. I forgot to put all those on my work calendar.
It’s a weird day without work. Makes me think of those old movies where a dude loses his job and puts on a suit and goes to the bar for a few weeks before he comes to terms with the loss. My routines really grant me a sense of equilibrium. I think this, at least, helps me to have empathy for kids who don’t look forward to Christmas break or Summer. I remember this one kids saying, “I would come here [school] everyday if I could. I’d sleep here. I love it here!”
When the plan changes, I don’t love it.
I still like summer and days off. But, you know, on days I actually plan on it.
So, I drive to a coffee shop and sort through chores on my computer. There’s always some task that got shelved for a later time. Today, I find one more document to upload so I can take EMT classes this coming spring or summer. My reasons for applying to the program are wearing a cool uniform (yep!), learning what to do in an emergency (I just want to know/have some kind of….plan. Like how larger building do fire drills, or when I was working with adults with developmental disabilities…we would practice spotting a seizure, knowing where the medication was, and walking through the steps of when to call and how to administer the medication), and I think its just good to keep my brain active. I know its not possible to know everything about mental health, but after 8 years as a therapist and 22 years in the field of psychology/human service work…I just want to gain some different skills.
Time just flies when you’re busy at work. When I was a waitress, I loved cleaning coffee pots with ice and salt. I wish I would feel the same way about folding mine and my families clothes or organizing my house.
I know I have more things to say, but that’s all I can externalize for now.
Wishing you moments of joy today!
Terra
Life Without Montages 