Happy New Year 2022!

I had just an awesome Christmas and New Years! It was so much fun having family and friends over. I love moving furniture around and making the space as nice as possible for guests. At times like this, I wish I’d bought a larger house. Then, I remember that we’d need to care for/clean the house the rest of the year. Small houses are more manageable for me. Though it’s been reasonably argued that a bigger home has more storage and that would mean less clutter.

Things I love about parties: cutting up veggies, cheese, apple, summer sausage, listening to the sound of kids laughing, drinking beer or wine (or a new one–mulled wine/hot wine…Did you know about this???!!), singing karaoke on with YouTube on the TV, sleeping on the floor, dressing up in fancy clothes, and feeling like the luckiest person on Earth.

After everyone leaves, I feel a bit sad. I watch TV until it becomes boring (my record is two full days of watching, not including breaks for work). Now, I truly can’t watch anymore shows. At first it is so quiet and it feels like the whole world is dull. I also wear my workout clothes for 2 to 3 days, as though I’m just about to get on the treadmill or do yoga (at work I wear professional clothes…that’s just basic respect). But I don’t until Saturday morning/yesterday, when I wake up ready to run again. A teenager told me that she wasn’t going to write about her trauma, because that was something her last therapist said she had to do. I don’t say it out loud but I think, “We don’t have to do anything except pay taxes and die.” Which was something my uncle used to say when we were little. We were like, “What are taxes?” And I’m not sure if he answered or if the answer was too confusing to remember or if I wandered off during the answer (its probably the last one). What I say out loud is, “We all have different paths to feeling well.” And I wish I would have added, “I’m a safe person to say, ‘no’ to.” Because I usually remember to say that. I don’t think I was always a safe person to say no to. Physically, yes, always. But I know that I used to pout and mope….long into adulthood…if I didn’t get my way on something. I believe that I have changed. I hope that is true.

Happy New Year! I only set one resolution this year and it is to improve my communication/support to parents of the children I work with at the school. At the clinic, I see the parents before or after the child’s appointment. But at the school, they are invited to come to clinic and rarely do. I think this is because of work schedules. I can try calling over the phone and see if that helps.

All the best to you and your loved ones!

Terra