Jealousy is for the young.
Recently, I remembered that I had only watched one season of Downtown Abbey. Every morning, I’ve been having my coffee in luxury. The costumes are beautiful. The drama was silly, until World War I hit (as the show is set in the late 1800’s and 1900’s).
Sometimes, I miss silly things like jealousy. Maybe I’m becoming a better person, but there are moments when I feel this deep ache to care about the things that once mattered to me. I wish I could care who is better looking than me, or who is more successful, or faster. I wish I could care, because then, maybe, things could all go back to being petty and easy.
After the war, on Downtown, the characters try to go back to the things they once valued. It’s just not possible, not truly. On a timeline that is longer or shorter for each of us, we fully realize that life is only to love each other. And most likely, this is for the best. But it can feel like living as a turtle without a shell. Oh, how I miss my nail polish covered shell!
Sincerely,
Terra Rose
Life Without Montages 