Anxious

I feel anxious for most of the day yesterday and again this morning. It comes on like a rainstorm on a sunny day. All I’ve been having is fun the past couple of days. Saturday, my mom was here and we had a brunch with my family and my husband’s parents and brother and little cousins. The kids were loving my mom’s little dog, who made the four hour drive out to visit us as well. Then, I went running with a friend on Monday. And on Tuesday, we had the kid’s friends from library storytime over to our house to play.

It has been very fun! There is nothing I love more than a party. Not the parties of college days, but the parties of family and friends…drinking coffee and eating snacks. Talking and laughing. I look forward to seeing the faces of the people I love. When we were considering moving to my husband’s home town, his description of how he feels about this place is what sold me. The hills and vastness of space. I don’t feel that way about any particular place, but I do feel a deep longing to see the people I love. I cherish the time together.

Many days, I already miss my kids. I know they will only live with us for a time, and then their own lives will begin.

Often now, I feel anxious to go to work. Its fine once I get there.

Hugs!

Terra